I had a dream.
not one where it was all peachy, but one where i got to say what i wanted, to a person i'll never say it to. nope it wasnt a declaration of love or anything...but a confrontation. And nope it wasnt with WL...
I dont remember exactly wat was in the dream...but i do remember the person and the topic...i cannot begin to describe to u how it felt to finally be able to let all those pent up feelings go. if the phase "shoulders sagged with relief" were to be used...mine would have gone all the way to the other side of the earth! it felt great screaming at the person. almost too great. i remember being so angry i cried. i remember emptying all that unhappiness and resentment. and finally, i remembered turning around and not bothering with that person.
Now that its daylight, i know that the incident wont happen. but i'm glad my dream got it out of my system. i've said my piece, learnt that its not worth being so petty, and i also learnt that if i cannot trust someone dear to me...i can either learn how to, or help the dear person to. hopefully at the end of this incident, i'll learn something so valuable i'll never forget it. Trust is fragile, but its not vulnerable enough to let me break it stupidly. i will not apologise for what i feel, there were reasons for me to feel that way. and i will not apologise for reacting the way i did. its only me. but i will apologise for not trusting, and i will thank this dear person for continuously trying. the coming week will be trying. and i hope that it wont prove disaterous. as i will so mote it be. *grinz* i've been wanting to use that. tata.
~ Me ~
I'm annoying at times and too stubborn for my own good
~ Likes ~
Just about everything which makes me smile. Esp, Magic. Charmed does it for me all the time.
~ Loves ~
Food. Yum. o and sports, reading,music,annoying people.*grinz*
~ Hates ~
Shan't mention it.
~ Wishes ~
Magic to be in everyone's lives and Well..the world would look better if i lost 5kg so i guess i wish i'd lose the damn 5kg already. Ha~
