I feel sad today.
i'm not sure what brought this emotion, but i feel sad. its like my heart has this ache which wouldnt go away. thinking back, the 3 years in NYP had so many ups and downs. i made friends, but how many of them are true friends? i think i can count with just one hand. i found love, but its been peppered with so many uncertainties that i'm not sure what to expect from it.
i constantly feel like my world is too small to hold me in. there is SO much out there which i've yet to experience. i know i would not be content with staying at one place. i know that my goal in life is not simply to have babies. i wanna do so much more. i wanna shine! i wanna help, i wanna make a difference. but besides trying in my small corner of the world...i wanna try elsewhere. i wanna be where i can simply unleash this annoying frustration. i feel like i have a lot of pent up energy...it takes one press of a button to let it out. but i cant find the frigging button. i dont understand it.
and i still feel sad. sad for people who aint having the best times of their lives...sad for those who are alone. sad for those who think no one cares...and finally...sad for those who dont know their own mind. i love life so much that i cannot imagine why people complain all the time. i'm not saying i dont. honestly, i complain too...
the thing is...all around me, i hear people saying things like, this person is not doing this, that person is not here, those people are not pulling their weight. if she can get away with not doing, why should i do? he's not doing anything, why should i do den? yada yada yada... i probably add my voice to the complains now and again...what i dont get is why do we even do so in the first place? why is there the need to fight with each other when the ultimate goal is one which benefits us all...and for those who dont pull their weight...why? dont u know that the people working with u will KNOW???? why do people constantly sprout nasties. constantly talk behind people's backs and try to sow discord. is there a need to?
i simply dont understand. is it that hard to just love?
~ Me ~
I'm annoying at times and too stubborn for my own good
~ Likes ~
Just about everything which makes me smile. Esp, Magic. Charmed does it for me all the time.
~ Loves ~
Food. Yum. o and sports, reading,music,annoying people.*grinz*
~ Hates ~
Shan't mention it.
~ Wishes ~
Magic to be in everyone's lives and Well..the world would look better if i lost 5kg so i guess i wish i'd lose the damn 5kg already. Ha~
