Vonne's

Sunday, March 09, 2008

GRACE!>

Cant seem to upload pictures. SIGH........
Niwaez, i miss having grace around. Feel like screaming at her thou. But, i dunno if i'll even get another chance. Wish she'll love me once more, thou i dont dare hope for anything. i accepted that she's moved on, but still, sigh.
Once i tot that best friends were like family, that they'd never leave no matter what. But now she taught me different. Best friends need attention too. Just that i learnt too late and now she's gone. Not dead, just not here. She says she's not ready to speak to me. I wonder till when. I dont like to leave things hanging. it annoyes me. Why cant we just solve it? I get mixed signals. some signals tell me that she still want my friendship. others tell me that she's gone for good. i try to talk to her, but she tells me that she's tired of clapping and that she'll talk to me when emotions settle. maybe thats sensible. but i dont understand why we have to be sensible coz when she's ready to talk, we might just not be friends anymore. Stubborness is something we both share, but if its being stubborn abt something which has a better solution, its just stupid. Grace, i dunno if u still care. i do. Just feel like u tell me the problem and den leave it to me to solve it when its too late. if the case has already been tried, and the verdict set, what defence can i prepare when i didnt even know i was on trial? i cannot make magic. i can only do human stuff. and that involves a whole lot of mistakes and assumptions coz i cannot read your mind. so tell me grace, u dont have to do anything anymore, but just tell me. how much does the friendship still mean to you? enough to put aside the pettyness and talk to me, or would u rather just leave things the way it is now and run away from solving it? hmmm? the clock's ticking, wat if i die tmr?

# posted by myself at 18:19