Vonne's

Monday, April 28, 2008

Been a missing>

Helo whoever reads,
exams are 'round the corner,actually no, its gonna hit me right smack in the face in two days. YUP, niwaez, i just wanna say thanx, for the concern i've been shown recently coz of the spat with Grace. It came at a very timely period when i was simply questioning everythin i did with regards to everyone's friendships. I'll just say this again thou, watever i do, i cannot guarantee that u'd be happy with me, and yet still, i cannot promise that i wont disappoint u, all i say i can do is try. As much as that word has been over used, it is still THE word i'll use, trying can both mean tiring and yet it can also mean not giving up.

And yes Grace, there i things i know which has disappointed me greatly, more than u can imagine, and yet, i still miss your company, and think of u when i see things. At this point in time, i'm so ready to kick u outta my life with a big fat boot planted on ur behind, ya, and i will do wat i say if i wanted to. Mostly because of ur letter. Have u no concept at all of the person i am? Of what i always have felt? I dont believe in re-starting. Its so stupid simply because u cannot re-start life. And re-starting does not erase past mistakes and hurt, it only gives u the illusion that i can be erased. This isnt a computer bug u can squash simply by re-formatting, or anti-virusing, u simply have to tackle it, even if its screaming at the top of ur voice at the person involved. at least then, it'd be solved. So yes grace, this is a gist of whats to come. there's 5 on the way for u, will prob spread towards ur b-day if its not in time. I dunno how u will take it, somehow i'm not entirely unhappy if u get pissed. At the very least, u'll solve it soon.

I'm not very complex. The very simple thing is, I love you, love who u are although u pissed me off big time now. Twins dont stop being twins, the reals ones cant, but the ones we choose, it's not out of jest. So unless u steal my husband (stop rolling ur eyes, i said husband not boyfriend), or kill those i love, or something to that extent, i WONT stop loving u, Wont stop thinking of u as my twinie, my best friend. So yea, the very essence is Shut up about re-starting, it wont work. And now, back to the study table, sigh, I want my best friend back, i've got tons of whine lined up in store for u.

Alright, for those who are still hanging in there, i do like everyone too. Just that i somehow love grace a bit bit more even if she doesnt believe me much anymore. anyone got a manuel on best friends? i think mine's expired. bleah.

J! u were unexpected! Tkx man, u've been this really cool friend under this sky we both share. Come find me soon, i bring u to eat! yum

i'll post my v-day tulips soon! Yay, my purple tulips. so happy.

# posted by myself at 20:17