Vonne's

Saturday, September 30, 2006

Tag Me!>

If my tagboard says something's wrong. dont believe it. *LOL* just tag away ya.

# posted by myself at 23:32

Aroma Therapy and Footwear>

You know..i'm kinda in love with the bath and body works moisturiser i got for my b-dae. its totally pampering. the only problem is that i CANNOT get it in singapore. *grumble* i was so hoping to get something to give as a present. but but but *sputters* i cant get any *wails* i'm even trying online shopping...*sobz* seems like i can only get it from eBay. Yucks. Dont even know if people used it yet. so gross.
niwaez...life now consists of notes. food. tuition. water and saving money. did u realise i didnt include breathe? yeah. its at that point. i'm pooped.
As for the jealously saga. i'm getting tired of it. although things are a little better, the problem's still there. over and over and over again. its wearing me thin. and still, it's there. and it seems like it wont ever go away. why doesnt it go away? its annoying, its loud, its not very useful and most of all...i always feel like stuffing my footwear up the wrong side of that thing. and still it doesnt go away. Why o why am i plagued with such a thing. y do i have this jealousy streak. why o y doesnt the streak leave me *wink* wat did u think i was referring to? Wahahahaha... that was fun. even thou the footwear thing on that mentionable would be fun as well. *grinz* alright. i'm going tuition. but not b4 i get my hands on a bath and bodyworks something.

# posted by myself at 12:52

Monday, September 25, 2006

Going a ways>

I'm in a rut. One where i try not to do certain things...but sometimes i just cannot help it. What do u do when u dont wanna hurt someone u care for, but somehow...words just come out of ur mouth without u meaning to...or you just type stuff without planning to?
What do u do when u know that u're not good enough for someone's standards but u want so much to be good enough for that person?
Wat do u choose, changing yourself for wat may be the better or staying the same coz u think thats wat u are?
Wat if u're afraid to disappoint? i am.

# posted by myself at 23:08

Monday, September 18, 2006

With two left hands and a deprived lung>

Well...
i was just wondering how people usually deal with jealously. I totally suck at handling this aspect of my emotions. Recently, i seem to be feeling that a bit more than usual. And as much as i'd like to say that its coz i'm super sensitive, its tough to take everything in stride when certain things grind on my nerves. How many times a day does my nerves and control have to be tested? well...more than i'd like them to be actually. and its damn tiring. so i'm trying to re-learn a new skill i once perfected. that is, to turn a deaf ear and a blind eye to my surroundings and to those who are giving me grief. which also means...be less of a sensitive person, and more of a "watever man, i dont really care" person. which is cool. coz my heart and stomach suffer less. Ha. Take that u!

Thats over and done with. lets see...exams are seriously running towards me now...its a little staggering to know that the semester ends in 3 weeks time. plus FYP presentation is due 3 weeks later, and every module paper will be rushed in the last two weeks. *sigh* where's the time to breathe? Aside from all that is tuition lessons. suddenly i wish with all my heart that someone is paying for my lessons. and my spending money. coz somehow...teaching and studying and living life all at the same time are balls which are damn tough to juggle.

niwaez...my com is lagging once again. and its just not that nice to carry on griping about things which i dont have much control over except to accept and live and ignore whenever possible. (which is super tough coming from someone who cannot keep the mouth shut)

Well...there are two friends i care a lot about who are fighting at this point in time. just want to say that no quarrel should be so big as to make both of u ignore each other. neither should it be allowed to spoil what is there between the both of u. long story short, no fight is important enough for u guys to stay unhappy long. *big hugz* (BOTH of u) hurry up and be better. ciao

# posted by myself at 22:26

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Of size 25 and the very 1st leap>

I finally made a leap today. Although it isnt the largest one... it is the leap of examinations. *grinz* and with one paper down...i'm that much closer (holds finger and thumb 1 cm apart) to my holidays! and i simply cant wait. i'm planning to go to Tioman! at least i want to. Ser went for $160 for 3 D 2N. i think its cheap...considering that food and lodging are included. plus she didnt spend more than $100 on expenses. alluring enough? i'm psyched! just have to find the contact person first thou.
Ah well...i go to chat with an old friend just a few seconds ago. *waves* Hi DaHui...
and i realised that time flew by quickly enough. I was sweet 16 and in a much smaller body. Ha.
That didnt last long...although i still miss another time when i was a size 25 waist *glares* believe me its true. measure my JC skirt la! niwaez...my point is...i'm growing OLD... and did i mention fat? *laughs* okok i've been grumbling about it but i havent exactly done anything abt it. ya ya i know...*mumbles* its just lonely to sweat by meself. would be better if i had a constant companion to sweat and grunt and admire my..ahem..our slek new bodies together. *wink* anyone interested in taking a class or playing ball on a regular basis? i am *raises hand* hopefully east side people...*bambi eyes*
niwaez...i'm tired. typed long enough. LOL...i wanna go do something else. stay entertained ya. *muckz*

# posted by myself at 22:28

Sunday, September 10, 2006

And the race begins once again>

well, the exams are finally showing their ugly faces.
after much anticipation, we finally know the dates and the topics...and...we're all cursing and swearing. at least i am. coz i feel really tired. studying lost its jest for me a while back. and when i have to imagine the sprint i have to make...sigh...its just a little tiring. but we're gonna finish school in 7 mths time!
half of me simply cannot wait. but the other half is simply scared shitless! i'm imagining all the responsibilities that comes with a paycheck. and all the things we have to know to serve our patients better. sigh, such is life eh. *shrugz* dont seem to me like i have much of a choice in that matter niwaez. i love wat i'm doing, so i guess its a consolation. but i still dream of being Dr Tay. heh. maybe i'll do another degree besides the one i want. :)
well...i'm thinking of cutting my hair. but i know i'll miss my hair. and i do so want a new style. sigh. i'd probably wait till graduation. i wanna see how long more i'm able to stand the length. grin. hoping that it'll grow to way way beyond my longest length. den i'll cut it short again. wahahaha. hair therapy thats called. by moi. ;)
ok i suddenly dunno wat else to say. erm...play fish tycoon! its fun. wahahaha

# posted by myself at 10:57

Saturday, September 02, 2006

Peter Pan and the lost girls...erm...boys>

I think i wanna be a grown-up kid. or, well, someone who is a grown-up but who knows how to enjoy life as it is. i'm beginning to love kids, actually, i'm beginning to love the innocent ways of children. they seem to be able to laugh at anything, everything. and they believe in magic. thats the most wonderful part about children. they believe in the simplest of magics, the magic of love! just as God loved us enough to sacrifice, they love without expecting anything in return! that's y i've never stopped watching cartoons. the values they seemingly taught me were priceless enough for me to see life as something beautiful. i used to believe that mermaids were real, that there really was a fairy godmother for each and every one of us. now i know better but, a small part of me has never given up the hope that they are true. *grinz* and somehow, inside my imaginary world, they are true. and i'm one of them. a flying mermaid ballerina. so there.

# posted by myself at 19:56