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Saturday, March 31, 2007
Tsk tsk>
Life is supposed to be a constant flurry of papers, words in blacks and whites. the constant music at the background is good. so are the small little tidbits lying around the house. Labels: BOOOOOOOOO...
What it is, is actually constant sneaks at the telly, constant drone of the radio, endless attraction to my lovely lovely mattress and the rest of the day spent in dreamland. Gosh...at this moment, i'm actually watching Mr bean try to draw a nude! Wahahaha....super funny...if u disregard the fact that i'm supposed to be studying. BAH....
Saturday's finishing. Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and my poly life would be over. totally over with nothing holding me back. unless of coz if i fail. which i certainly hope NOT. dun wanna do any sub papers nor extra sem. i wanna graduate just like everyone else...which means i gotta hit the books AGAIN...
Nuclear med is sooooooo boring. its so boring i fell alseep the first time i attempted to read the first 6 slides. gawd...so far i managed 6 chapters...o man...i'm damn slow...the whole world's probably already completed it all. yikes.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
a broken rainbow>
I feel sad today.
i'm not sure what brought this emotion, but i feel sad. its like my heart has this ache which wouldnt go away. thinking back, the 3 years in NYP had so many ups and downs. i made friends, but how many of them are true friends? i think i can count with just one hand. i found love, but its been peppered with so many uncertainties that i'm not sure what to expect from it.
i constantly feel like my world is too small to hold me in. there is SO much out there which i've yet to experience. i know i would not be content with staying at one place. i know that my goal in life is not simply to have babies. i wanna do so much more. i wanna shine! i wanna help, i wanna make a difference. but besides trying in my small corner of the world...i wanna try elsewhere. i wanna be where i can simply unleash this annoying frustration. i feel like i have a lot of pent up energy...it takes one press of a button to let it out. but i cant find the frigging button. i dont understand it.
and i still feel sad. sad for people who aint having the best times of their lives...sad for those who are alone. sad for those who think no one cares...and finally...sad for those who dont know their own mind. i love life so much that i cannot imagine why people complain all the time. i'm not saying i dont. honestly, i complain too...
the thing is...all around me, i hear people saying things like, this person is not doing this, that person is not here, those people are not pulling their weight. if she can get away with not doing, why should i do? he's not doing anything, why should i do den? yada yada yada... i probably add my voice to the complains now and again...what i dont get is why do we even do so in the first place? why is there the need to fight with each other when the ultimate goal is one which benefits us all...and for those who dont pull their weight...why? dont u know that the people working with u will KNOW???? why do people constantly sprout nasties. constantly talk behind people's backs and try to sow discord. is there a need to?
i simply dont understand. is it that hard to just love?
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Thin Red Line>
Why is it when i'm on the brink of being nice, something has to come up to annoy me? how much more am i supposed to tolerate? i have a limit. and i too will bite. GRRRRRR......
Sunday, March 18, 2007
bareback.birthdays.boys.blarmy>
alright...i tot that it totally looked like the lady wasnt wearing anything. took the picture for fun. cool eh? *grinz*
On friday...we celebrated Mich's and Mishi's B-daes...*grin*
Fish n Co provided a really entertainin evening...our two michelles stood on chairs despite dress and 3/4 pants...*grin*
there were sparklers and merry making...songs and laughters...we had fun, a great cake (i got it...muhahah...its cake...i dont go wrong...) and plenty of laughters...i was really high...coz i missed having these people around me...people i know will never be upset with me for long... people who...somehow or another will end up taking care of me more than hurting me...i miss it.
Well...the pictures will show u a bit of wat was. *grin*
The b-dae cake with candles
The b-dae cake w/o candles
Mishi smiling with cake in front of her.
Mishi with a lighted candle in her head! No i'm kidding. lol. its mishi thou. picking the candle out with her mouth.
Mich picking the candle out with her mouth now.
Both of them on the chairs with sparkles being handed to them.
Both of them having fun?
Cut Cake!
I just spent 15 hours of my life watching a drama. i totally loved it...until the last 5 minutes. BAh. It abt a girl going into a guy's school bcoz of a guy she saw on tv...and fell in love with. alright...it'll probably not happen in real life...but...it was super entertaining to watch. The eye candies werent too bad either considering the fact that the story is set in a BOYs" school! woo... *grin* i liked XiuYi...but coz they were totally featuring Quan...i fell in tv love with him too...*swoon* he just has to ask...and i'll say yes! anything man...anything...woo...grin...of coz he has to give that killer smile and all too. yum. slurp. ops...sry WL...its just TV yea...*grin*
Sigh...to be surrounded by the friends u trust most, to be able to get into naughty trouble with them ALL the time...and to be able to live in the same dorm ROOM with the guy of your dreams...*dreamy sigh* it;s totally DEE life...unless of coz...u're constantly aware that if the school finds out...u're totally kicked out. *grin* plus the fact that the uni degree will NOT look good on me...precisely coz of the fact that i dont have a winky. *evil laughter*
the female lead was also this totally super native girl...wahaha...she didnt even know that the guy she was bunking with (the man of her dreams) already KNOW that she's female...but didnt tell on her coz he didnt wanna let her go...*dreamy sigh* again...why isnt my life THAT exciting?
well the final leg of the 3 year journey is here. how far can we jump? how fat can we run...most importantly...how well will we be remembered? Cheers mates! Do tag...the board wont bite. ;)
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Finishing line>
I think i'm past the incident whereby i was annoyed with this person.
Somehow i've stopped caring, abt the actions and ways...it only serves to amuse me now...amusement...its pretty entertaining...to see how many ways my mind can run amok.
*rubz hands*
now...i cant think of anything horrible to do to this person. I just hope that any damage...if any...would be repaired..and soon...
its finally finished...the wasted energy is done...i'm so over it...i dont really care wat u are trying to do now. not much. *shrugz* i hope u are happy...and i hope u'll have a happy life. i asked u once why we werent better friends since we knew each other before this...but u told me that its prob coz we werent meant to be that close or something...at that time it sorta hurt my feelings...i wanted to be better friends...but i guess...knowing you for who u are...its not that we cant be...its just that u didnt want to try. i thought u were worth it. but i guess u didnt share my view for me. *shrugz* its past now...i'm not petty...lets just hope that one day...we can shake on this and have it resolved.
In abt 3 and 1/2 weeks...it'll be end game. no more lectures, no more homework, no more rushing datelines. Its drawing near. are u ready? Be afraid...be very afraid...muhahahaha...
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Got taken from the back!>
No i wasnt Shitting... i was at ikea and i found the toilet bowl thingy rather convenient... was just trying it out for myself...and my sister decided to whip out her phone to show the world that i'm sitting on the toilet bowl in the middle of a showroom...Ha~.jpg)
Tee Hee...I was taken by the back...my sister did the dirty work...she caught me unawares..I was busy trying to find a way out of the maze we were in....and yet...and yet...by my own sister...the one who shares a room with me...the very same one i watched grow up...the one who i constantly threaten abt shaving eyebrows...the one whose eyebrows i would shave if she disturbed me...the one whose MILK BOTTLE i held when mama told me to...the one...ok u get the picture....She...She...She...took a picture of me from the behind....jpg)
*wahahahah* and although she callls it The Sexy Back, i only see one thing...this same thing i was plagued with since the very day i was born...the very thing i cannot stand when i want to buy pants...
MY BUTT!!!!isnt it just simply SOOOOO obvious in THIS PICTURE????!!!!!! o man....shucks....Just another reminder of how much my butt has grown....pretty soon i may hafta name it. Bleah. Why do other people grow larger boobs but i get a larger butt when i grow fat? the world is SOOOOO unfair. HRMPH...I shall go wallow in butt-pity now...tata...
Friday, March 02, 2007
Seductive? Or not?>
http://www.seductiveshorts.com/#goods/quiz
i took this quiz, its kinda wacky. Click on he icons and answer your questions. *grinz* have fun.
Of Socks, Jaws, and broken things.>
I got my glasses run over by a bike!
I hung it on my bottle, coz it was raining and i didnt want the glasses to be splattered with rain while i was wearing it. I know it will still be splattered with rain but i just didnt want it to be on my face. Nvm...its an Yvonne thing. Niwaez...the glasses droppe without me knowing...i was plugged into my mp3. i walked a dist b4 i realised it was gone. den i went back to look for it. Gosh...when i found it...it was pitiful. One of my lens already popped out of the socket. The other one cracked in two different places. sigh...
You can look at the pictures i posted. *sobz* my close to $200 bucks glasses...and now its gone...not even one year old. WAAAAAHHHHH......
Moving on...
I wanted to sock someone in the jaw yesterday. Actually two someones. But i'm glad i didnt.
This time...i merely walked away from what was bothering me and went to my Twinie. *waves* Hi grace! i'm glad i did...coz grace pointed out that i may just be having and emotional moment. not in exact words thou. But...but...but...argh..i still wonder how it feels to pull hair and sock jaws. man...must be awesome to be able to lose control and NOT be hurled into jail for that one moment of estacy. Den i wont even bother walking away. *LOL*
But somehow...i'm glad i walked away. I saw enough of what i needed to see. Remember i prayed to let go? I also prayed for Him to lemmie see wat i was supposed to see, to make the decisions i need to. I've seen quite a bit, and yesterday's incident was just another one. Nothing negative tagged to these infomation thou, its just a means of collecting knowledge, and making the decision i need to. In law and Admin, its the getting all the information to make an informed decision part. Like they said, lets watch and see. :)
My two year anniversary wasnt all that great. It was on the 24th, i didnt post coz i wasnt too happy abt the way things played out. I met him on the 25th to pass WL his present. As it turns out, he wasnt feeling too well, and i was too excited. I was the epitome of happy for a while, while he wasn't exactly the nicest person to be around with at that moment (did a header in the morning and was suffering the after effects at this point). So when happy meets sullen, and happy's mood was spoiled...well...u can guess what happened. ended up quarreling at starbucks after he opened his present. *sigh* wat a way to spend the 2 year mark. He didnt look too happy when he opened his present. *sobz* Den after the squabble was over, he told me it was coz he wasn't too happy abt the money i spent. knowing that i'd probably be super broke. Yup, he was afraid i couldnt feed me. *LOL* nice gesture at the wrong timing i guess...well...its a past incident now...lets hope that any other anniversaries after, if they happen, will be much better than this one. Ha~
Someone said i'm not a tactful person. Really? I've never thought so, but i guess the things i do make it seem that way. Probably coz i dont mince my words sometimes. I dont feel the need to at certain times, to certain people. Thats probably coz i really want wat i say to make an impact. At other times...i mince my words so much that the other person doesnt even know wat really happens. How tactful is a person supposed to be when she's annoyed? I admit that i lash out with sarcasm. And i don't hold back much. But was i supposed to be tactful when i'm annoyed? Sometimes i wish someone would answer my questions thru the tagboard. *hint hint* but the tagboard seems to not be working properly.....*shakes head* So...am i an untactful person? i'd really like to know.
O ya...Hi Huips *waves* i know u read sometimes...just wanted to say hi. *LOL* Oh...i saw XinYi last night...she's still looking great! :) tata.
